WHAT I FOUND
The note on the sidwalk
someone long ago
or perhaps last week
etched in the cement,
"I love myself."
I walked over it,
paused
and went back to it.
On second look,
I see,
"Do you?"
EPHIPHANY
"This is where I leave you"
in blue ink
yellow post-it note on the kitchen counter.
Last night I saw these words
handwritten by me, from inside me.
When did I jot this down?
Spotting this message on my last day of
being Jennifer at 38,
I had the epiphany that it is
time
to fully
be.
I peel the cover off my clementine at lunch.
I peel back the fantasy to embrace the reality.
I taste the sweet juice of possibilities.
Remember, the turquoise stone
she placed in my hand with the word "freedom"
sharped over the smooth surface?
Spirituality
My soul awakens in Woodstock.
Outside my bedroom, through the glass door,
tall trees whisper to me,
"Step towards the discomfort. Let go of the outcome."
Rolling over, I dream of places I am trying to reach.
Give back to life itself.
I will go deeper.
I will awaken authenticity
in every action I take.
Clouds and sunshine
like uncertainty and discomfort
exist at the same time on this Friday morning.
Inspiration comes from silence.
My First Room
White dresser,
matching mirror,
vacuumed peach carpet.
Cedar trunk,
Grandma Ullmann's quilts
folded neatly on top.
Cabbage Patch Kids decorate
water bed,
uncluttered space.
Hanging from the ceiling,
the ballerina doll
perched on the swing.
Canopy over bed,
peach curtains,
posters of kittens,
the table beside the bookshelf
set for tea with mom.
We read Cinderella and Alice In Wonderland.
I will be a Dancer or Actress or Nurse.
My room is at the end of the hall.
All of my possessions have a home,
a place to be put away.
There are daily chores.
Clean, organized,
truth,
a sanctuary.
In Charlotte Sometimes,
a teenage girl travels back in time,
trades places with Clare, who
shares the same bed,
a safe place to sleep.
Purpose
Follow your dharma,
discern your true nature.
Bring everything you have to it.
The sky, the earth,
a description of yourself.
Embrace the seasons.
See what shows up
in the uncertainty.
Despite challenges,
take the hints.
Get it done.